Freedom....

So, I've officially decided to go natural! Yes, I'll still be doing the occasional flat irons but my hair is so much thicker once I took my braids out. I feel like by being natural you have so many more options for hair styles and the Lord knows I have some bad hair days... I'm going to wait until after Christmas and put my yarn braids back in... I loved them and now I know I can go at least a month without wanting to take them down..... I'm just worried b/c I know I have to find a good stylist because I sweat really bad in my head...

Just made an appointment with my LS to get my hair done at her school... she does a good job and I know she's even better now that she's being trained... I really just wanna go so I can show the white people that she knows how to do black hair....

I've been doing a lot, trying to get things together for the undergrads for the Great Lakes Regional Conference....yes it seems so far away but I want to be on top on everything. I'm frustrated b/c I've been trying to finish these roster for months and I'm still waiting on information from two states!!!! grrrrr..... I see why I've always been bad at team work...I don't like depending on others for my outcome and I need to work on my patience (although I'm usually a lot more patient than others)

So....I miss home....I'm getting our plane tickets home to MI for Christmas on Friday! Tomorrow is my brothers 28th b-day..he's getting old but sadly that means I am too.... I love him so much and I hope he has a great day...I gotta put his card in the mail..I know I always wait until the last minute!

Racism or Anti-America???

Obama's handshake ignored in Russia!

http://http//www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1C_NWMRs8Q

Continued Success.....

I'm sitting here with a smile on my face. I'm so happy that I made this decision to move. Week #1 is complete and I have no reason to look back. Everything is going just right! I prayed on this move for a while and I'm happy that everything was clear before I drove 14 hours away from home!!! The drive was crazy long, but surprisingly I didn't really get tired until I got here. Zeus was so ready for it to be over though. The apartment is nice...I'm just in need of a couch!!!! And other little accessories...but Zeus loves it as well....pictures to come!

My other half and I are doing great. I guess when you've known someone since you were 15 years old and they seem to be "roots" like Madea says in your life, you know it's meant to be. We were discussing how girls change their last names on FB to their "boos/bf" or hyphenate them. I told him I'm not changing it until I say "I do". He's been on this "speak things as they will be/speak them into existance" jump lately. I can't complain about that...all I know is that I'm not running anymore. He told me two years ago that I was going to be his wife and I can admit I was scared but, when you leave things in Gods hands it's turns out AMAZING! I think about my fantasy wedding day and all the planning that goes with it.....definitely waiting on that special moment.

I'm going to miss my Sorors in MI/Great Lakes so much. I love Zeta but it's definitely different depending on your Region. I think my Sorors and I at home understand that a lot of young females coming to college aren't always informed about Zeta so we make sure we're out in our communities and on campus showing them that Zeta is the best Sorority. It's a little different here....the Sorors that I've meet have been really nice, but it's just different than home. My LS's Court and Aleesa told me that I can be of help, to maybe give them that inspiration or push to do more. And, I hope that I can be.

But Great Newz....I'm really getting everything in order to possibly run for Nat'l 3rd Anti. Excited b/c I was determined to get Soror Foster's (20th Grand Basileus of Zeta) contact info when we were at Regionals in MN this past April. She not only paid for half of my Z.O.L. Registration but she's now adopted me and my future in Zeta looks so bright!

This is when being far from home comes into play....my brothers g-pa passed away this past week. I really wish I could be there for him during his rough time. I remember when my g-ma past away he was there for me and comforted me. Just like a big brother should...growing up together Norman and I have always gone to each other when things were hectic...I just wish I could give him a hug and tell him I love him and everything will be okay!

I'm praying for my sister and her fam...I'm not sure if everyone knows but there was really bad flooding in Atlanta this past week. She's busy stripping the whole first floor of her house since it was basically underwater.

My new beginning...yes my mommy was right! But, I'm still so ready for it. I talked to Donna Jean today..she's been sick for almost two weeks. Instead of my mommy taking cough medicine she's been making her own "old school" remedy. I say she's just been getting tipsy...lol... my mom is the BEST I love her to death she's so silly....

AMAZING!!

I'm promising myself that I'm going to continue to update my blog....

But, I'm exhausted so here's a list of things I need to discuss tomorrow after church

1. The Move
2. "Him" (Speaking things into existence and looking at dresses)
3. How much I'm going to miss my SororZ from MI/ Great Lakes
4. The New Apartment (sort of included in the move)
5. The fact that I wish I could be with my brother during this rough time
6. My prayers for my family in ATL
7. My new beginning...yes my mommy was right! But, I'm still so ready for it.

The Storm

I write these blogs knowing that most likely no one is reading them. But, it helps to get my thoughts out.

Lately things have been running through my mind non-stop and I worry about how I'm going to get everything accomplished. I found the biggest, darkest piece of gray hair in my head the other day when I was curling my hair and I knew that it was all because of my stress.

I'm worried about how I'm paying for fall, what I'm going to do about my broken car, how my bills are going to get paid, etc. Sometimes it feels like when the sun is just coming out a cloud approaches.

My buddy made it clear to me the other day, My blessings and my deliverance can't come without a storm. In church today, the minister discussed how God has to break us down sometimes in order to build us back up. I'm taking this as my storm, and God knows I've been broken. Thursday when my car went out all I could do was let a tear fall and tell myself that I had to believe in God.

I have to remember that if God said it was so then it is so, he told me that I was going to get my degree from UofM, and I know he didn't bring me to my Senior year for me not to be able to finish because of $. I've had a roof over my head for nearly 21 years and I know God isn't going to fail me now....I just have to trust in him....and continue to put my faith in him and I know I'll be alright.

The other day I had to put things in perspective.....life could be worse.....

I'm thankful for God's mercy, and for his love, and for the people that he's put in my life.

House by the Side of the Road

Samual Walter Foss
public domain 1899

THERE are hermit souls that live withdrawn
In the place of their self-content;
There are souls like stars, that dwell apart,
In a fellowless firmament;
There are pioneer souls that blaze the paths
Where highways never ran-
But let me live by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

Let me live in a house by the side of the road
Where the race of men go by-
The men who are good and the men who are bad,
As good and as bad as I.
I would not sit in the scorner's seat
Nor hurl the cynic's ban-
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

I see from my house by the side of the road
By the side of the highway of life,
The men who press with the ardor of hope,
The men who are faint with the strife,
But I turn not away from their smiles and tears,
Both parts of an infinite plan-
Let me live in a house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

I know there are brook-gladdened meadows ahead,
And mountains of wearisome height;
That the road passes on through the long afternoon
And stretches away to the night.
And still I rejoice when the travelers rejoice
And weep with the strangers that moan,
Nor live in my house by the side of the road
Like a man who dwells alone.

Let me live in my house by the side of the road,
Where the race of men go by-
They are good, they are bad, they are weak, they are strong,
Wise, foolish - so am I.
Then why should I sit in the scorner's seat,
Or hurl the cynic's ban?
Let me live in my house by the side of the road
And be a friend to man.

My Path...

I had to take a week to separate myself from everything else and I think it went pretty well.... I've been so content for almost three weeks now. I put my situation in God's hands and believed in him...and knew that I had to have patience.
I want people to understand that the point I am at in my life right now, I had to begin making decision for me, rather than others. I was at a point where I constantly worried about how my actions would affect others. I thank everyone who has contributed to helping me become the woman that I am today. But, as Madea says it "some people are only in your life for a season" and for many their season has ended.
I believe God, has showed me some real things these past few weeks, and I just have to continue to be strong through this transition.... and I know that if I continue to look ahead the benefits will be AMAZING....